Dear future husband

 Dear Future husband, 

    We made a life long commitment that may only matter in the matrix but a commitment I honor you and myself for making. I am writing you this letter today, Sunday December 5th, 2021 to display my gratitude. I want to start by saying thank you for trusting me to be your back bone but also your best friend. I promise to keep your secrets and all of your embarrassing moments in a keep sake in my heart. We have come a long way in this journey called unconditional love. We both have had to heal from things that we didn't cause but have taken accountability for the part we played. We both needed a lot of love and reassurance during this time and we both have given it freely. I thank you for allowing me to be "Me". Not just the masculine me but the feminine me. I am grateful to be able to shine, express myself, love myself freely and live in my divine nudity without having to compromise. I am grateful for your healed mind and heart that has assisted with not only my personal healing but the comfortably to be soft with a man but still in my power. You learned how to love me when We were just friends and never stopped when we became more. You noticed the little things like how I blushed when you told me how beautiful I was, how I giggled when you hyped me up before I/we went out, which meals I would order when we went out to eat, my favorite color and flower but most importantly the times I needed you the most. The times I was mute and didn't have the strength to talk. The times my manic episodes started to kick my ass and I was depressed. The times I just had a long day from experiencing life. You gave me the space to spend time with myself and rest but You also gave me the biggest hugs and allowed my tears and snot to damp your chest. The night and risings I didn't have the strength to get out of bed because I was in pain, you ran my bath water and assisted me in and it didn't stop there. You prayed over me, played my favorite songs and sung them to me. You did anything in your power to make me smile but if the smile didn't appear you didn't see it as rejection and make it about you. You just held me tight and made sure I knew I was loved and when I was ready you would listen. I thank you for all the times you came to my rescue and showed me I was a prioroty. I thank you for the times I didn't have to say a word, you just Knew and I still don't know how. I thank you for teaching me new things and defending me in public but correcting me in private. I thank you for the respect you show me, being trust worthy and making me feel secure. I thank you for treating me like the Goddess I am but most of all I thank you, I honor you for allowing me to LOVE YOU unconditionally. I promise to always pick you up when you fall, to reassure you when you need it the most, to match your silly ways, to pray for you every night, to be honest, to be a ear when you need to talk, to cater to the king you are, to hold you up high and won't bring you down, to speak life into you daily but most of all to remain loyal when life test us. I praise your ways of communication and honesty. You have never taken the right to make my own decisions away in acts of selfishness, how you may disagree or think you know what's best for me. The way you cater to your spiritual being is inspiring. The way you listen to learn and innerstand gives me the chills. The ways you're so free in your masculine and feminine divinity is breathtaking. You worked hard to be who you are today and I am honored to have been able to love you through it all. You are my best friend first, my lover second and I am grateful for this forever bond. We are one, We are a unit. Thank you for being a daily fresh of breath air in the hectic life of the matrix. To align with someone who accepts who you are, doesn't want to change you, doesn't feel the need to control you, views life similar, able to have constructive conversation when there is a disagreements and to feel and be free is a blessing. To know I will be creating memories, building an empire, nurturing and teaching our children with such a supportive and honest man is absolutely exciting. Honestly, there's no real words to describe how that makes me feel but its a good feeling know that. Through thick and thin I am here, I am yours until the universe says its time. I love you so much my future husband, Again Thank you!

                                   - Zasha Anishka